For Miles. and Miles

Well for a while i felt, dejected, lame, unlifelike, like i wanted to disappear and never show my face to anyone again all because of one person. i felt like shit for half well more than half of last year and the beginning of this one. Meanwhile they moved on and did new things in their life. Mine was stuck in stone. All i could do was hate. and nothing else. Bad attitude and bitchiness out for all to see. I didnt even feel ashamed(still don't), most deserved how i treated them. I talked to my dad for hours about what happened really. How it made me feel less of myself. like i could jump of a cliff to die, but what would happen just to spite me is that fall would be never ending. He told me of all my troubles(more like reminded me) and i remembered i overcame obstacles harder than this yet im letting this one kill me. I'm letting the anger swallow me whole and never let me go. I felt like crying everyday. most days i did. I let that go. I haven't cried or felt the need too since i talked to my dad i dont feel all that rage. Im good now. surprisingly. i thought i was over this before. as you can see in the below post but it took a talk to my dad to make me realize i cant let that bitch control my feelings. i need to pick myself up and move on if i want to realize my dreams. with all my heart. THANX DAD =]