sleep disorders.

*sigh* As of late I've been having sleeping problems, since i came back to memphis, before then i was fine. now i cant sleep through the night without waking up. or waking up too early without being able to get back to sleep, damn is it a pain and it makes me feel sick. Starting to think i have some underlying problem that im yet to face in order to rid myself of this problem.

Might be the rage i have towards the person i lived with before, i mean she lets me live there. tells me to start school and wait to get a job and two weeks before i have to leave she tells me i need to find a job or i will have to go back home, then a week before i leave. She calls my DAD, my DAD!!! She fucking talks to my parents like i'm some stupid fuck who cant think for herself. and then i wake up at three am cuz i went to bed alittle early, and i check my mail and i see an Itinerary that shows my flight back to Memphis from California. I was lost and like thinking "WTF, this has to be some kinda mistake" but i see it was bought by my sister so it couldn't be a mistake. So i call my dad and he says "yup i asked your sister to buy you a ticket so you can come home" personally I dont blame him or my family i blame the person i lived with for not keeping me in the loop with my own life. and now im pissed every other second and i dont even respond to her emails or facebook comments. i think i ignore her completely. for now its best.

bored not tired and its late/early

Hey yo, just writing to show how bored I am, and how nothing releases me from this constant haze of boredom. Does someone have a cure? Probably not. Nothing can fix this. Well not here. I feel somewhat lost again. I feel like I need an adrenaline pump or something. Or to burst in a stupid dance or to meet someone i haven't seen in years. I needed new scenery got it and had to go back to the old shit. How fun. *sigh* Guess i have to make dues with this for a while. and go back to my bad sleeping habits...thanx memphis...or should i be blaming myself. yeah im guessing the later but i dont care.


Hey where are you my irish friend. havent seen you in days you'd be able to hack my boredom to pieces. =)

YO HO HO HO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just landed in Memphis like 20 million hours ago but tell me why i was already cleaning T_T how annoying. I watched Crayon Shin-Chan and Law & Order: SVU on the plane, talk about funfun xD

SUICIDE BY STAR...

LISTEN TO IT AS LOUD AS YOU CAN WITH HEADPHONES ON AND IT WILL FEEL LIKE YOU UNDER WATER, LISTENING TO DRUMS HAHA ESPECIALLY IN THE LAST 40 SECONDS~AMAZING. to me of course LOL