sleep disorders.

*sigh* As of late I've been having sleeping problems, since i came back to memphis, before then i was fine. now i cant sleep through the night without waking up. or waking up too early without being able to get back to sleep, damn is it a pain and it makes me feel sick. Starting to think i have some underlying problem that im yet to face in order to rid myself of this problem.

Might be the rage i have towards the person i lived with before, i mean she lets me live there. tells me to start school and wait to get a job and two weeks before i have to leave she tells me i need to find a job or i will have to go back home, then a week before i leave. She calls my DAD, my DAD!!! She fucking talks to my parents like i'm some stupid fuck who cant think for herself. and then i wake up at three am cuz i went to bed alittle early, and i check my mail and i see an Itinerary that shows my flight back to Memphis from California. I was lost and like thinking "WTF, this has to be some kinda mistake" but i see it was bought by my sister so it couldn't be a mistake. So i call my dad and he says "yup i asked your sister to buy you a ticket so you can come home" personally I dont blame him or my family i blame the person i lived with for not keeping me in the loop with my own life. and now im pissed every other second and i dont even respond to her emails or facebook comments. i think i ignore her completely. for now its best.

bored not tired and its late/early

Hey yo, just writing to show how bored I am, and how nothing releases me from this constant haze of boredom. Does someone have a cure? Probably not. Nothing can fix this. Well not here. I feel somewhat lost again. I feel like I need an adrenaline pump or something. Or to burst in a stupid dance or to meet someone i haven't seen in years. I needed new scenery got it and had to go back to the old shit. How fun. *sigh* Guess i have to make dues with this for a while. and go back to my bad sleeping habits...thanx memphis...or should i be blaming myself. yeah im guessing the later but i dont care.


Hey where are you my irish friend. havent seen you in days you'd be able to hack my boredom to pieces. =)

YO HO HO HO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just landed in Memphis like 20 million hours ago but tell me why i was already cleaning T_T how annoying. I watched Crayon Shin-Chan and Law & Order: SVU on the plane, talk about funfun xD

SUICIDE BY STAR...

LISTEN TO IT AS LOUD AS YOU CAN WITH HEADPHONES ON AND IT WILL FEEL LIKE YOU UNDER WATER, LISTENING TO DRUMS HAHA ESPECIALLY IN THE LAST 40 SECONDS~AMAZING. to me of course LOL

Hates...haha

-When people drive by in there cars and stare at you
-When people talk and in the conv. say the same things over and over
-When people call themselves Macs or Pimps
-When my friends constantly ask to borrow blank CD's
-I absolutely hate people who are arrogant and think the world revolves around them
-When someone uses something thats mine without asking me
-When adults don't clean up after themselves

God....

I read once that a person doesnt believe in god but shes becoming a christian to avoid hell or something like that. my responce: below


Personally I've had troubles in life that makes me doubt gods existence I really dont know what I believe, but I wouldnt pick a religion just in case I die. That is just weird how can you pick god, Jesus cuz you might be scared of death, I happen to not be scared of death at all. I mean we all do die eventually. if I was an Athiest I wouldnt go with Christianity just cuz we all die. I personally think its wrong.


WHY FEAR GOD IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN HIM?

Why some women are attracted to Asses...

Masochism
enjoyment of hardship: the tendency to invite and enjoy misery of any kind, especially in order to be pitied by others or perhaps admired for forbearance

Its not always money that draws a girl in. I think its a type of Masochism, I have a friend. She seemed to have a nice boyfriend who treated her right. brought her flowers, always said I love you. Instead she broke up with him and dated a guy who was 10 years older than her, always berrated her in public and somtimes i think he may hit her, he also owes child support and drove a humpty, to be quite frank I felt sorry for the guy she broke up with more than her. I do pity the guys who try, I mean geniunely try and get shot down repeatedly by girls. Its like good isn't good enough. Maybe most women do have low self esteem. He's not really anywhere in life yet she lets him treat her like crap and won't listen to anyone but him. At a point in time she lived with my family and I'd cook meals and she'd give all hers to him, she had to lose like 30 pounds, I think thats rediculous. I could never date any guy like that.

Hey ya'll

Sup foos im bored and chattin and stuff. call me LOL

Hmmm School, music, funfun haha...

Been super de duper busy lately, and its just one class so far -_- damn. haha but im okay been listening to hella music too been lovin it hehehe and its been hot as hell....still burnin up at a sexay 93 degrees and its after 7pm haha.


I've also been meeting lots of sexay peoples yesterday i went to a Filipino dining hall where I said goodbye to my friends old family member and we had Filipino food and sexay Filipino peoples *drools* they were hotter than the food.....sorry. hehehe. though the food was fantastic non the less.

Do you like 2ne1s in the club harhar I love that song. *dances* ooh and pretty boy <3

I have an essay due and an exam on thursday I should be studying. lol


baibai i guess

Last week of school till i get break yay *dances* okay now bye